If you’re a human being in an intimate relationship with another human being, you know ….well… you know. Some days you think it wasn’t a good idea. Some days you think that being responsible for the welfare of yourself and the twelve cats you somehow collected would be preferable to the box of rocks slamming edge on into each other that is on occasion a very good analogy for a human relationship.
I’m angry. The why of it is irrelevant because it could be anything. It often is “anything”, a sentence spoken at the wrong time, a thoughtless gesture to match the many thoughtless gestures you’ve unknowing tossed out into the other person’s direction or even an impasse you temporarily or not so temporarily reach and there are even times when things happen that make you question the validity of your commitment to being together. Tell me how Ben and Jerry’s is supposed to help that?
This will pass, or it won’t, but I’m not going to resolve a nuclear threat with a fruit basket or nice box of chocolates. What I will do is figure out how to look at the way I feel, accept it and move on, one way or another. My one job for the day is to find something loveable in my partner and something lovely to feed the hungry part of myself that’s no where near my stomach. Maybe it’s appropriate that it’s Labor day because this feels like work already.